Lately..

I have an urge to go to Washington, DC.... to visit or live there, i don't know which.. i am not a very politically opinionated person.. hence why i never pictured myself ever going there... but lately i think I'd like it!.... this could be possibly due to the fact that I've found a couple of potential jobs there (keeps fingers crossed) although, to be honest..its a stretch..but one can hope! The other reason could be due to the fact that I have done nothing in the past week except catch myself up with a show called "Bones" which takes place in Washington DC and involves a HOT FBI agent and his scientific, socially inept partner. Its funny and smart and i can relate to the characters! In other news, I'm starting Kaplan again! yay!!!! this time I'm getting in there and pretty much catching all the little things that i missed last time! we'll see what happens....
It is getting cooler here in Vegas, thank goodness!! its been lovely to have some cool air to breathe when i walk outside. I miss flagstaff very much and all the people that were there with me!! Still can't process the fact that school is in session right now and I'm not in it! But i have a gut feeling something is around the corner about to happen...(job,school..i don't know) i just hope its good!! :)

Mechanism of Action

I absolutely just LOVE it when you happen to stumble across a song/lyrics that you instantly connect to.. and get that feeling of " wow!,..thats EXACTLY how i feel right now!" Sometimes our hearts and minds feel emotions or senses we ourselves cannot describe. Music for me, is SO powerful in expressing such feelings...may it be love, contentment,anger..etc. I never really understood why some couples have " a song"...but lately i've been thinking...maybe its because they truly feel soooo strongly for one another thats indescribable .. and that maybe that song is the only way to remotely put it. For me, whenever i'm angry/sad/excited/anxious (any emotion in the book) i've turned to music.. and when i stumble on that ONE song that i happen to connect to at the moment, i instantly love it..and will listen to it over and over and over again.
Music is my coping mechanism along with cleaning obsessively, just as others perhaps exercise or cry...or hit a pillow.. i think its sooo important to find SOMETHING to do while being in a state of emotional discomfort. however, i do wonder about those who make an UNhealthy coping mechanism choice...and make their emotional discomfort even more uncomfortable. Can a coping mechanism become a bad habit!?
In other news, i miss being in school, yes i said it. I just like to learn! As much as i dreaded dragging my butt out of my warm bed in the mornings, i find myself lacking regular intellectual conversation/wonderings in every day to day life...job searching and what not....wonder if there is a song about that!?... :)